I'm ready...

They told us before integration, "Your time will fly by and then you'll want more time. You won't want integration to end." Well, I'm sorry to say that I do absolutely want it to end. They told us we wouldn't want it to end because we would want more experience as a student, more time to mess up under someone else' watch. I just don't agree. It's definitely not that I think I know everything now (Good Lord...), and think I'm ready to be on my own. It's more that I can finally see my life as a midwife. I can see myself going to and from work and being on call for deliveries. I can see myself coming home to my husband and children after work in the evenings, or having to leave my little boy's soccer game because I got called in for a birth. I'm ready for that. I'm ready to be the midwife in the room. Any room. All the time. I know it will be crazy difficult at times. I know I will want to give up. I know there will be times when I wonder why I did this. I'm ready for that. I'm ready for my life as a midwife.