Someday I will be strong enough...

Some lyrics to a new song that features Taylor Swift say, "I wish I was strong enough to lift not one but both of us. Someday I will be strong enough to lift not one but both of us."

These lyrics make me think of my mom and her fight every time I hear them. I was at a point in my graduate degree that I had not yet learned what her symptoms meant, and to be honest, I never thought to search regarding them. She presented with pretty regular bloating and constipation, which I thought nothing of. I wish I had been strong enough in my knowledge of GYN problems to recognize what was happening.

As I dwell on what I was unable to do for her, I am encouraged by the second half of these lyrics. "Someday I will be strong enough to lift not one but both of us." I am strengthened by my knowledge of women's GYN problems and someday hope to strengthen the lives of many women who present with those same symptoms and others. Maybe some day, my ability to help other women will be a memoriam to my mother, who, although very strong, was unable to overcome the cancer that ravaged her body.

Everything happens for a reason. I still believe that. We serve an amazing God Who places us in situations to strengthen us. Sometimes, the reasons are unclear. I am sure there are many reasons why the path of my life has gone the way it has. God has shown me that one obvious reason is so that I will be present to help other women who encounter these problems.

This is one of the many reasons I will soon become a midwife.

Lord, from any doubt as to why I am here and what I am doing, deliver me.